erin jj

Hello, again!

2009-10-23T02:38:01Z

Is it weird that I haven't posted in 9 weeks?

I have done SO MUCH stuff in that time.

My first class has their final exam tomorrow. I bought a car on Wednesday. I moved to Oshawa. It's almost my birthday. It's almost my 2 year anniversary with Alex. I had two jobs. I quit my second (horrible) job.

And I'm sure much, much more...

I'd ask, "what've you been doing?" but really, I've still been reading my friends page this whole time :)

A quiz again, but really.. I can't resist!

2009-08-20T18:17:56Z

on the cheek.
on the lips.
on their hands or fingers.
in my room.
in their room.
of the same sex.
of the opposite sex.
related to me.
younger than me.
older than me.
with jet black hair.
with curly hair.
with blonde hair & blue eyes.
with flaming red hair. (rofl.. ginge.)
with straight hair.
smaller/shorter than me.
bigger/taller than me.
with a lip ring.
who was drunk.
who was high.
who I had just met.
who was homosexual.
who I didn't really want to kiss.
on a holiday.
who was going out with someone close to me.
who was my good friend's brother or sister.
who had been/is in jail.
in a graveyard.
at a show/concert.
at the beach.
in a pool, jacuzzi, or some type of water.
who was legally too young/old for me to have sex with.
with dyed hair.
with a shaved head.
who was/is my good friend.
who was/is in a band.
who has tattoos.
who is of a completely different race than me.
in the rain.
in another continent besides where I was born.
with an accent.
with an std.
on a boat.
in a car/taxi/bus.
on a plane.
at the circus/carnival(CNE).
with a missing body part.
in the movies.
eskimo style.

A quiz!!

2009-08-16T19:04:54Z

I couldn't resist! After Ash mentioned her old journal last week, I've been reading through mine. I found this quiz I did on June 19th, 2002. I thought it might be interesting to contrast the answers. My old answers are italicized, new ones are bolded.

THE BASICS

1. Full Name: erin kathleen jefferies

2. Birthday: november 2, 1984

3. Age: seventeen twenty four

4. Where do you live: just outside of the T dot. (Toronto) Downtown Toronto (until the 27th)

WHO

5. If you died tomorrow who would you leave everything you own to? I'd give it all to Mike, and leave him a note telling him that everything that he doesn't understand the meaning of goes to Ash, and anything he feels is family-related goes to my mom. As with Ash, the photos should be split between everyone.. Um, probably My parents, and they could divide things out to whoever deserved them. I think it would be selfish not to let them be the first to go through my things.

6. If you had to go live in Borneo for the rest of your life and you could take one person on this earth, who would you take? I'd hafta take Mike.. I don't think I could live without him. Along similar lines, I think I'd say Alex. It would be a toss up though. I think Ash would be good in Borneo.

7. Who is the one person that you could stand spending a straight 24 hours with and not get the slightest bit annoyed with? Not the slightest bit, huh... it would depend what we did in that 24 hours.. in certain activities I'd say Mike, in others I'd say Ash... maybe my brother. Ash, for sure. I love Alex, but we usually have SOME annoyance with each other in a 24 hour span. Ash and I are gold.

8. If you woke up one morning and noticed that your leg was missing who would be the first person you'd call? anyone who was in my house. I would just shout "Ahh! my leg is missing!!!!!!" 911, and possibly work, and then my parents and Alex.

9. Let's say that your dad came into your room and told you that you would have to get married in the next week. You can pick the person but you have to stay the rest of your life with them, no getting out of it, who would you pick? MIKE Alex.

10. What if you woke up tomorrow and you were somebody else completely, who would you be? Ash.. I wanna see how it is.. or Pat.. I think it'd be cool to be my 2nd best male friend.. Hmm..Zooey Deschanel.

WHAT

11. What would be the first thing that you would do if you woke up one morning and you were the opposite sex? remove all of my clothing and do jumping jacks.

12. If all of a sudden you had the ability to do one thing better than everyone else, have one amazing talent, what would it be? best actress... or singer... that'd be cool I would like to be the best teacher, ever.

13. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would you change (personality and looks wise)? personality: less emotional.. sometimes I hate crying.. looks: my tummy.. I want less tummy! personality - maybe less sarcastic. Is that a personality trait? looks - whiter teeth. lol.

14. What is your dream career? to teach drama.. and to be an inspiration

15. What is the one thing you have to do before you die? dance like nobodys watching. Travel around the world.

16. If you could be a member of any band that has ever existed, what band would that be? A Perfect Circle Moxy Fruvous

17. What is the one thing you care about the most? I'm gonna steal Ash's answer of family.mike.friends.me.music. all of it together as one. Love.

RANDOM

18. If you could be in any movie as the lead role what movie would it be? Jefferson in Smokers I honestly couldn't decide. I'd like to put a bunch together, though.

19. If you could design your perfect mate what would he/she look like and be like? Mike.. sounds corny, but currently he's perfection for me. I'll stay cheesy and say Alex. lol.

20. If you won the lottery what would you do with your, let's say, 18 million dollars? move to england, take Mike with me, get an amazing long distance plan and very fast internet (so I could keep in touch with all my friends), buy an insane amount of shoes, handbags and lip gloss. I'd also give a bit to my family and a bit to charity... I like to be nice.. oh, and I'd buy some killer DVDs Buy a house, quit one of my jobs, invest a chunk of it, pay someone to pack my house for me, still buy a LOT of handbags (mostly Coach and Louis Vuitton), buy a car, and then probably give some to my brother for university, and my parents, and give some to charity. I'd spread that shit out.

21. What is the single most embarrassing thing that has ever happened to you? almost had someone walk in on me in the bathroom when I wasn't alone Ohh, what an awkward answer. I don't get embarrassed easily. I don't know what to say.

HAVE YOU EVER

22. Fallen in front of someone you thought to be quite good looking? all the time.. I can't walk right, have no balance Legit, I'm always falling over.

23. Run into a wall? prolly Not yet today, but loads of times.. twice in Ash's dad's cottage!

24. Sleep-walked? dont think so No, but I often do things in my sleep and forget I've done them. Last night I yelled at Alex for turning on the computer. I was like "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!"

25. Gone skinny-dipping? nopers I still don't think so.

26. Kissed someone of the same sex? yupsters.. took photos too Yes, sir.

27. Snuck out of the house at night? only in the summer Again, yes!

28. Gotten in a car wreck where you were the driver? nearly.. Yup. Twice, now. Not my fault, though. I was rear-ended once.

29. Laughed so hard that what you were drinking spewed out your nose? yes... ah, Québec..

30. Started laughing really hard so you just spit out what you had just had in your mouth cause you couldn't swallow? no, I'm not Ash... hehe

31. Swallowed a bug? yeah.. a little fly once.. it was in my drink.

32. Have you ever actually kept a New Year's Resolution? I don't think so.... For a little while, I usually try!

After literally months of not posting...

2009-06-26T01:38:23Z

How is it possible that I would find this post-it note in my bedroom, under the silver tray I keep perfumes on? lol...

When one door closes another opens.. ?

2009-03-11T03:05:16Z

For the first time in my life I wrote a resignation letter and gave notice to a job.

Oh, I'm lying. I might have done that when I left McDonalds in grade 11.

*ahem* For the first IMPORTANT time in my life, I wrote a resignation letter and gave notice to a job. Because I never update livejournal, you're a little behind on the news. That was last week, on Monday. Friday was my last day working at the daycare, with the ever-hilarious toddlers, and Monday of this week (aka yesterday) was my first day at my *new job*. Yay, new job!

I can't say a lot about the new job, because I had to sign a confidentiality agreement and whatnot. I deal with sensitive materials. But I also do a lot of neat office things, and create and then order business cards for people, and edit some serious corporate resumes, and sometimes answer the phone. lol. I bet that sounds boring, and not at all fun. I love it! Today, I was introduced to people twice like this: "This is Erin. She's new here, hired full-time to help us out. She's SO smart. Really picks things up quickly. We're SO glad to have her". Yeah, that's my second day on the job. What I love most about the job is two-fold. 1) My dearest friend Corrina works there part-time (yay!) and 2) There's FREE TEA or HOT CHOCOLATE or COFFEE anytime I want! I think I drank maybe 4 teas today. I brought some of my own, before I realized that there's a tea bar with like 6 kinds of amazing teas. Ohh, yum. I love work.

In other news, I have strep throat. This is no fun. Well, again I'm lying. Today it's a lot more fun than it was yesterday, and over the weekend. I couldn't swallow without wincing. I actually almost cried. Seriously. Luckily I got numbing spray, Advil, and serious penicillin drugs. Let's hope I get much better very soon!

Cheers.

not_dissonant @ 2009-02-20T13:29:00

2009-02-20T18:35:29Z

My friend drjon posted on his lj saying that the BBC allegedly believes most people will have only read 6 of the 100 books on the following list. I do a LOT of reading, and a lot of these books are on my "to read" list.

How do your reading habits stack up? [bold those books you've read in their entirety, italicize the ones you started but didn't finish]

1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6 The Bible
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12 Tess of the D'Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19 The Time Traveller's Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25 The Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
34 Emma - Jane Austen
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli's Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48 The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Atwood
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel
52 Dune - Frank Herbert
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68 Bridget Jones's Diary - Helen Fielding
69 Midnight's Children - Salman Rushdie
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75 Ulysses - James Joyce
76 The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal - Emile Zola
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80 Possession - AS Byatt
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87 Charlotte's Web - EB White
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo

I'm at 24 fully read, 4 partially read. In your face, BBC!

Transit, you have gone TOO FAR

2009-01-30T00:21:31Z

I just wanted to go to the mall (which is literally a 15 minute walk up my street) to buy a pair of jeans, maybe two. My two favourite pairs are beginning to wear out. At 6:37 I left my house to stand at the bus stop that is virtually next door. I then stood there for a fucking HALF HOUR in weather that feels like -12C. In that time I literally saw EIGHT busses pass by on the other side of the street. EIGHT! Are you kidding me?! At about the 25 minute mark, I saw a bus coming, and all of the people waiting stepped outside... only to have the bus sail past us with a "not in service" sign on the front. At the half hour mark, when I decided that I had turned into a popsicle, I gave up and just walked home. When I was right outside my door, the people at the bus stop (who I had made friends with by that point) yelled "there's a bus coming," but I wasn't going back then. Fuck that. And I know that may sound silly to some of you people, but think of this: When I finish my shopping and I'm all tired and want to come home, will I want to wait ANOTHER half hour for a bus? Because unless I magically happen to be there at that instant when eight busses arrive, that's how long I'd be waiting again, I imagine. Stupid fucking TTC.

The worst thing...

2009-01-16T02:35:28Z

The worst thing is being so sick that you can't sleep all night because you're up hugging the toilet. And then having to miss work because you're still hugging the toilet at 8am. And then surviving all day on one can of gingerale, and feeling dizzy because you've essentially had no food in two days. And finally eating toast and feeling okay, but getting a MASSIVE headache. And then crying your eyes out because the worst thing to think about is being on a bus for 2+ hours tomorrow, and that's the only way to get to see your boyfriend. I feel so weak, and useless.. and I don't know if I won't be sick again tonight, or if I'll make it in to work tomorrow, or anything. I just want a hug and a kiss so bad, but I don't think I can make that trip. This sucks so bad.

Merry Christmas, one day late

2008-12-27T02:37:28Z

I honestly don't think I even turned on the computer yesterday, except to watch two episodes of Dexter. I certainly wasn't on the internet. So, one day late, I wish you all a Merry Christmas (or whatever you celebrate).

My Christmas was pretty good. I mean, my brother is in Taiwan, so that was no fun, and I only get a few days off because my work is open basically all through the holidays. Spending time here in Kingston with my family has been excellent, though, and I got some nice presents. Guitar Hero, Birkenstock clogs, some silver earrings, 2 books, $50 gift card for La Senza, $20 gift card for Chapters, unknown amount gift card for Shoppers, movie certificates, a whole lot of Body Shop lip balm.. and things I clearly can't remember right now. My loving boyfriend bought me a beautiful ring, which is being resized right now. I'll get to wear it on January 4th or 5th when we pick it up. I'm so excited.

Tomorrow, after I get the last of 3 Guardisil shots to ensure that I don't get HPV, I'm gonna march into Rogers to see if I can get a new phone, cuz mine is killing me. Sometimes it just decides that it wants to turn off, while I'm in the middle of a call! This is not okay. I've taken it in before, and all they did was take off the cover to look at it, then replace the cover to tell me it's fine. I've only had it for six months, but it's seriously driving me insane. That's why I want to upgrade to the LG TU915 VU phone, which will cost me some cash, but whatever. Better than my broke-ass phone. It's also a brand new phone *from* my provider (as opposed to like.. Craigslist or Kijiji) for a price I'm willing to pay, which is nice.

I'm sure no one cares about my phone, but whatever.

Joy

2008-11-24T12:09:26Z

My best friend will be home in less than 7 days.

:)

Sondre Lerche on Friday in Toronto?

2008-11-12T01:44:01Z

My dearest Toronto friends,

I happen to have an extra ticket to see Sondre Lerche at the Mod Club on Friday in Toronto. Does anyone want to go, or does anyone you know want to go? I'm not looking to make money, I just don't want this ticket to go to waste. I'd take $15 for the one ticket, for which I paid $18.50 plus taxes and stuff. Anyone?

Birthday 2k8

2008-11-02T04:43:47Z

It's twelve thirty-something, and today is my birthday. I'm officially twenty-four years old. I live in a city three hours away from my parents, in my own apartment, that I pay for with my own money from my own career-type job. It may not be the job I keep for the rest of my life, but it certainly is a pretty good one. I have great friends, and an amazing love, with whom I plan to be sharing the rest of my life. My best friend told me today that she thinks that 24 will be the best year yet for me, and I've got high hopes. Ever since I can remember, 24 has been the year that interested me the most. I always felt like it was the real age of adulthood, for no real reason. I've also always thought I'd be engaged by the time I was 24. Strangely enough, just before this time last year, if you'd have reminded me of that thought, I would've said "are you insane? who would I be marrying," but now I've got the best man I think I could ever find. 24 has already started out in the best way it could. I'm with him. In the morning, I'll be at breakfast with two great friends, eating eggs and teeny cupcakes. Later in the week I have plans with two other friends, and then later this month, the best one comes back from halfway around the world. Forget 24, I always knew November was the best.

I'm gonna throw the phone away.

2008-10-07T23:26:02Z

I'm not going to really go into it, because really, the whole saga is just too much to bear. I'll just let you know this as background info:
-Almost a month ago, I ordered internet and home phone service from an unnamed company. We'll call them P.
-That service never got hooked up, even though I seriously wanted it.
-After many, many calls, literal hours being on hold, and being told I couldn't cancel my service, Jamie assured me that it was cancelled, and he'd put through a disconnection notice. That was Sept. 27th.
-TODAY I receive an automated call to let me know that my internet order has been processed, and I should get the modem in 3-4 days.

Now I'm sitting on the phone with P, again, wasting my phone minutes, again, because they've fucked up. How long have I been on hold for so far? Well, when I started, Friends was still on, and it starts at 6:30. When I started, the eBay auction for guitar hero that I'm watching was at more than 45 minutes, and now it's at 18. All of this bullshit because THEY'VE fucked up.

And I'm sick-- getting sicker. I was supposed to go to the movies tonight and relax, but my head was throbbing SO hard from a sinus headache by 4:30 that I knew I had to skip the movie and go directly to the pharmacy for medication. I got 4 different types: daytime and nighttime sinus meds, Buckley's (for when it turns into congestion and cough) and lozenges, for my sore, sore throat. Ugh. That's what makes this whole mess even more annoying. I'm sick as fuck, dizzy and headachey, and yet I STILL have to sit on the goddamn phone waiting for P to pick up.

I hate my life right now.

Coming Home

2008-09-16T14:36:01Z

I moved to my temporary apartment in Toronto last Friday, found my real apartment last Saturday, started my job last Wednesday and moved into my real apartment on Sunday. In case you're wondering what the apartment looks like, there are "pre-move in" pictures on facebook, and "I've moved in" photos will be up as soon as I really get this place in a state to be photographed. I need to get some stuff put away, which means finding a space for some of the big things. I have three big bins sitting beside me right now that need to find a permanent space. Unfortunately, I only own two closets, and one is dedicated to my clothes. I forsee boxes of dvds sitting in the bottom of one closet, and the three bins finding a semi-permanent spot in the corner of this room. It's not going to be pretty, but not everything has to be perfect.

Work is so fun. I teach senior kindergarten kids, and they are seriously some of the funniest and cutest children I've ever met. This week, I get to work at 730am and I get the kids who are there some breakfast. Then we all hang out and wait for my coworker to get there. When she arrives (at 9), I leave for 2 hours. When I get back I bring lunch for the kids with me, and I go pick up half of the kids from their school for lunch. Then we eat, and hang out some more, and then go outside for free play while my coworker goes on her lunch break. When she gets back, I go on lunch too. When I come back from break, I pick up their afternoon snack and hang out again until it's time to pick up the other kids at the end of their school day. We eat (again. lol), then play or read books or do some worksheets and whatnot, and then my day is over! How could I possibly complain about my work?

But I've got to leave for work again in 10 minutes, so I shall cut this off now.

To wrap it up, in case you skimmed the rest of the entry, I'm still alive and I'm having a good time :)

New Things

2008-08-30T00:36:31Z

I think, maybe, I will start to update this more frequently. I just feel like it.

I got a job. A real people career-type job. I work with senior kindergarten kids, which I think is fabulously hilarious and fun. I also do Drama things, aka my favourite thing. The best part? I'm moving to Toronto. If I get the apartment I'm fighting hard for right now, I'll live around the corner basically from Corrina, Sweeney and Kareem. What can be better than that? The fact that Ash will be back in mere months to join me at work and in Toronto. Excellent :)

Sorry it's been a while...

2008-07-14T17:52:01Z

I'm working at a summer camp in Pennsylvania. Alex is coming in roughly 3 hours. I have actually physically had shivers of excitment. Literally.

Moving up, moving out, moving on.

2008-04-30T06:15:57Z

Tomorrow.. actually, today, really. In roughly 12 hours my father will arrive to pack my ENTIRE LIFE up into 6 bins, 5 cardboard boxes, 1 suitcase, 1 duffle bag, 1 garbage bag, 1 backpack and whatever else it takes. Then on Thursday morning at "bright and early" o'clock, we will drive on the 401 from here to home, possibly for the last time ever, certainly for the last time with me as a student. I will never again be a student at the University of Windsor. Weird. How did I somehow think that would never happen? I guess I've been in school for so long that it never really sunk in that it would end sometime. And I mean, I'll be back in schools in a flash, but I'll be on the other side of the big desk. I've got an interview with a very good board on May 10th, and who knows what else after that. Real life, I guess. Weird. I don't know how to feel about that.

Ugh.

2008-04-03T10:31:43Z

Y'know what's not fun? Having a disease which gives you vertigo, which in turn gives you nausea. Yeah. Welcome to my life. This is the first morning in a while that I've been able to eat more than one bite of bagel-- I've had about four, and hopefully I'll be able to keep them down. The anti-vertigo medication seems to be working as I didn't wake up feeling like the world was spinning, but I still sort of wish I could spend every moment of my day sleeping in my bed. In bed is where I feel the best. I really hope this whole thing clears up soon...

not_dissonant @ 2008-03-23T15:37:00

2008-03-23T19:38:28Z

I haven't posted in 7 weeks, and it's not because I don't have much to say... it's because for the first time, there are lots of people to talk to.

Happy Easter, everyone!

not_dissonant @ 2008-01-31T16:20:00

2008-01-31T22:01:55Z

stolen from spellotaped. I think I've done this before, but it's still fun. Yay! and good luck.. ps- thanks for still reading this, though I haven't updated in 100 years. I'm still okay, I still love people, I still hate school, and I'll be in Florida this time tomorrow.

01 : open your winamp/itunes.
02 : put the shuffle-mode on.
03 : find a picture of the first 20 artists. if the same artist comes again, skip.
04 : have your friends guess who the artists are.

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'cuz it only makes sense, I'll screen the comments. If you get them all right? You're my hero.

not_dissonant @ 2007-12-14T00:10:00

2007-12-14T05:12:13Z

And suddenly everything is right.

sigh

2007-12-06T06:37:39Z

I haven't posted here in a month, and now when I do, it's nothing good. I'm in love with a fabulous man. If truth be told, it's my life's goal to live forever with this man. He's amazing, and generally makes me happier than anyone has.

But tonight, my own insecurities and inadequacies have gotten us into a big fight, and I hate myself for it. And now I'm bleeding a little bit, but it's not making me feel any different. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day, especially after he reads the roughly 9 page e-mail I sent him. I feel so juvenile, like adults don't have fights like these.

I just want to grow the fuck up.

Oh my.

2007-10-15T04:51:25Z

He just left, and I can honestly say that I'm a little bit sadder in my life knowing that in roughly 15 minutes we'll no longer be in the same city. This stupid sucks so much, but I have to have hope for tomorrow, when if I'm lucky, he'll message me and be like "I am more attracted to you now than I have ever been. I can't wait for the 26th when I'm back, so I can tell you I love you, a lot." Hey-- it could happen! And if it doesn't, I at least know I've got someone to fuck around with. lol. I'm also a pansy because I didn't kiss him when he left... but looking back on it, if he doesn't want a relationship, I don't want to push him. Maybe on the 26th he'll kiss ME.

Basically, if your name isn't Ashley Bee, you can pretty much ignore this entry.

Okay, this was ridiculously fun.

2007-10-13T12:56:16Z

- Bold all of the following TV shows of which you've seen 3 or more episodes.
- Italicize a show if you're positive you've seen every episode.
- Asterisk if you have at least one full season on tape or DVD
- If you want, add up to 3 additional shows (keep the list in alphabetical order).

30 Rock
All in the Family
America’s Next Top Model
Ancesters In The Attic
Angel
Are You Afraid of the Dark?
Are You Being Served?
Arrested Development
Baboon & Weasel
Babylon 5
Babylon 5: Crusade
Battlestar Galactica (the old one)
Battlestar Galactica (the new one)
Baywatch
Beavis & Butthead
Beauty and the Beast
Beverly Hills 90210
Bewitched
Blackadder
Bleach
Bonanza
Bones
Bosom Buddies
Boston Legal
Boston Public
Boy Meets World
Breaker High
Bromwell High
Buck Rogers in the 25th Century
Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Bug Juice
Caitlin’s Way
Californication
Carebears
Chappelle’s Show
Charlie’s Angels
Charmed
Cheers
Clarissa Explains It All
Clone High*
Cold Case
Columbo
Commander in Chief
Coupling
Covington Cross
Cowboy Bebop
Crossing Jordan
CSI
CSI: Miami
CSI: NY
Curb Your Enthusiasm
Dallas
Dancing with the Stars
Danny Phantom
Dark Angel
Dark Shadows (1967-1971)
Dark Skies
Davinci’s Inquest
Dawson’s Creek
Dead Like Me
Deadwood
Degrassi: The Next Generation
Designing Women
Desperate Housewives
Dexter
Dharma & Greg
Dinosaurs
Different Strokes
Dirty Jobs
Doctor Who (1963)
Doctor Who (2005)
Doctor Who (2006)
Dr. Quinn, Medicine Woman
Dragnet
Drake and Josh
Duckman
Due South
Earth 2
Emergency!
Entourage
ER
Everwood
Everybody Loves Raymond
Extreme Makeover: Home Edition
Facts of Life
Family Guy
Family Matters
Family Ties
Farscape
Father Ted
Fawlty Towers
Felicity
Firefly
Flash Forward
Forever Knight
Fraggle Rock
Frasier
Freaks and Geeks
Friday Night Lights
Friends
Full House
Futurama
Get Smart
Ghost Hunters
Ghostwriter
Gilligan’s Island
Gilmore Girls
Gomer Pyle, U.S.M.C.
Greek
Green Wing
Grey’s Anatomy
Growing Pains
Gummy Bears
Gunsmoke
Hannah Montana
Happy Days
Hardcastle & McCormick
Hercules: The Legendary Journeys
Heroes
Highlander
Highlander: The Raven
Hogan’s Heroes
How I Met Your Mother
Hillstreet Blues
Home Improvement
Homicide: Life on the Street
House
Hunter
Hustle
I Dream of Jeannie
I Love Lucy
Instant Star
Inuyasha
Invader Zim
Invasion
JAG
Jackass
Jeeves and Wooster
Joey
John Doe
Just Shoot Me
Keen Eddie
Knight Rider
LA Law
Land of the Lost (I'm singing the theme song in my head right now!)
Laverne and Shirley
Lexx
Life on Mars
Life With Derek
Little House on the Prairie
Little People, Big World
Lizzie McGuire
Lois and Clark: The New Adventures of Superman
Lost
Lost in Space
Love, American Style
M*A*S*H*
MacGyver
Magnum PI
Malcolm in the Middle
Mama’s Family
The Man from U.N.C.L.E
Married... With Children
Melrose Place
MI:5 (aka Spooks in the UK)
Miami Vice
Millennium
Miracles
Mission: Impossible
Modern Marvels
Monk
Monty Python's Flying Circus
Mork & Mindy
Murphy Brown
My Life as a Dog
My Little Pony
My Name is Earl
My So-Called Life
My Super Sweet 16 (I've seen EXACTLY three episodes)
My Three Sons
Mythbusters
My Two Dads
Naruto
News Radio
NCIS
Nip/Tuck
North Shore
Numb3rs
One Tree Hill
Oz
Perry Mason
Phil of the Future
Pokemon
Power Rangers
Prison Break
Profiler
Project Runway
Psych
QI
Quantum Leap
Queer As Folk (US)
Queer as Folk (UK)
Red Dwarf
ReGenesis
Relic Hunter
Remington Steele
Ren & Stimpy
Rick Mercer Report
Rocco’s Modern Life
Rocky and Bulwinkle
Rescue Me
Road Rules
Robotech
ROME
Roseanne
Roswell
Sailor Moon
Salute Your Shorts
Saved by the Bell
Scarecrow and Mrs King
Scooby-Doo, Where Are You?
Scrubs
Seinfeld
Sex and the City
Six Feet Under
Skins
Sliders
Slings and Arrows
Smallville
So Weird
South Park
Spaced
Spongebob Squarepants
Sports Night
Star Trek
Star Trek: The Next Generation
Star Trek: Deep Space Nine
Star Trek: Voyager
Star Trek: Enterprise
Stargate Atlantis
Stargate SG-1
Step by Step
Superman
Supernatural
Surface
Survivor
Taxi
Teen Titans
That 70’s Show
That’s So Raven
The 4400
The Addams Family
The Adventures of Pete and Pete
The Andy Griffith Show
The Apprentice
The A-Team
The Avengers
The Beverly Hillbillies
The Bionic Woman
The Brady Bunch
The Cosby Show
The Colbert Report
The Daily Show
The Days and Nights of Molly Dodd
The Dead Zone
The Dick Van Dyke Show
The Dresden Files
The Famous Jett Jackson
The Flintstones
The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air
The Golden Girls
The Honeymooners
The Hour
The Invisible Man
The Jeffersons
The Jetsons
The L Word
The Love Boat
The Lucille Ball Show
The Mary Tyler Moore Show
The Mighty Boosh
The Monkees
The Munsters
The Muppet Show
The Nanny
The O.C.
The Office (UK)
The Office (US)
The Pretender
The Real World
The Sentinel
The Shield
The Simpsons
The Six Million Dollar Man
The Sopranos
The Suite Life of Zack and Cody
3rd Rock from the Sun
Third Watch
This Hour Has 22 Minutes
Three’s Company
Top Gear
Torchwood
The Twilight Zone
Twin Peaks
Twitch City
Two and A Half Men
Ugly Betty
Under the Umbrella Tree
Veronica Mars
The Vicar of Dibley
Video On Trial
The Waltons
The West Wing
What Not To Wear
Where in the World is Carmen San Diego?
Whose Line is it Anyway? (US)
Whose Line is it Anyway? (UK)
Will and Grace
Wings
Wiseguy
Without a Trace
WKRP in Cincinnati
The Wonder Years
Worst Jobs In History
The X-Files
Xena: Warrior Princess
Young Hercules

Apparently I live my life in roughly 1995.

So, classic to my life..

2007-10-09T02:58:51Z

I ruined my first Christmas surprise today. Let's rewind a little, to explain.

My parents were in the south of France for 2 weeks to celebrate their 30th wedding anniversary, which is really today (Happy Anniversary, mom and dad!). While they were gone, my mom asked me if there was anything I wanted her to get me from the Duty Free on the way back. At the same time, Julie Last showed me an array of perfumes she got while working at the Duty Free-- one of which was Burberry Brit perfume, and I liked it a lot. So the next time my mom called, I told her that if she saw it and it was a good price, or in a gift set or something, I'd like the perfume. Fast forward to Wednesday, when my parents came home and I called them. Mom says it was a no go on the perfume. I'm not too upset, cuz I literally have 4 perfumes and a body spray that I love. Yeah, I love scents.

Today, I did my hair in my mom's bathroom so my brother and his girlfriend could use my bathroom. I open my mom's cupboard to get some hairspray, and on the top shelf I see a box with the Burberry pattern on it. I think "oh, I wonder what perfume my mom got!", so I look. Burberry Brit. Yup. Ugh. So in the car I say to my brother "I think I ruined a Christmas surprise". I tell him the whole story, and his response is "yup. That was for Christmas. Mom told me all about it already. Good going." Double ugh! But yay, cuz I got the perfume. My brother swears he'll keep my secret.

In other news, everyone I know turned down going to a movie with me, so I'm going to have the Erin Jefferies Pity Party of One. I'm going to go to the gym (potentially alone! ack!), order a pizza just for me (and take the leftovers in my lunch on Wednesday), do my nails, and watch House and Bones. Yay me!